Food for thought #2

Well its been a while. That's my favourite line to start a blog I guess because I really post once in a while. I've decided to just quit the game and stop whining. It'll come to me when it eventually comes. I've also decided to start being concerned about people for a change out of love rather than a sense of duty. No point texting someone that you care for them when you don't.

One of the few people I've never stopped thinking about, praying about and caring about is M. N to a certain extent. hmm M & N. hahahaha. (I've decided to start just being me too and not try to be who I'm not.)

I've always had a soft spot for M since she's a girl and I've always treated her like a little one but she's now 21 so yeah. All grown up now. She's not talking to me ever again I think but yeah, I'm used to it. (People not talking to me ever again). Kinda sad right? Maybe its me, too OCD and controlling at times, she just needs her freedom yeah? My favourite student without a doubt or rather the one I always have a soft spot for. In fact, I do have a soft spot for all of them, always defending them. haha and still thinking that they are kids.

I'm always wanting to do stupid things with them, I mean fun things rather but the only thing I know how to do is to play guitar so yeah that's the best way I can express myself anyway, I've got to learn how to express myself in other ways I guess. That's what I've been saying for the longest time but I haven't found a way so far.

MS, N have finished officer cadet school and are being posted or are already posted to their units. JH is overseas on student exchange and EP is going to be overseas for students for the next 3 years.

Which leaves me all alone again and having to train up new people for the music team. oh yeah, KC (bassist) and TL are still around, so is JT and SH so that means i'm not that bored after all. I still have them to irritate me and be irritated. At times I think old people are just small kids who need attention too. =) haha.

I've been playing the part of an Uncle lately. I guess perhaps like the bible says taking care of kids when their dads are not around and helping their wives do stuff. I like carrying their kids and holding their hands while crossing the road. I love pacifying them too when they can't find their parents and they stay with me for a while waiting for their parents. yeah. yup.

ok. I'd love to write more right now but TF is waiting for me to go over to his place. So I've gotta go take a shower. (I haven't showered since last night. haha) yup. Its a 1 hour train ride after the shower.